“爸怎么样了？”霭青问着乔治。
乔治摇摇头，叹了口气，也没说话，去冰箱里拿了两瓶啤酒，递给维克一瓶。
兄弟俩一模一样的动作，仰头咕嘟两口，长长出气，维克末了还打个响嗝。
霭青看了安妮一眼，“我有菊花茶，你要不要来一杯？”
安妮笑了一下，“我下班了，如果你们不介意，我喝瓶啤酒吧。”
霭青扭头看乔治，“可以，没问题。”
乔治话音未落，维克起身去拿回来三瓶，递给安妮一瓶。
“安妮，”霭青问着护士，“我们晚上吃披萨，你留下来一起吧。”
安妮也不客气，“我喜欢披萨，不过我吃的不多，”拍了拍屁股，“我在减肥。”
霭青微笑着点点头，这么壮实，减肥没有必要，少吃点披萨倒是真的。
披萨是从当地有名的店里点的外卖，半个多小时就送到家。
披萨是薄皮的，霭青点了五张，足够几个大人吃了。好几种馅，传统的pepperoni腊肠，全cheese芝士，夏威夷火腿菠萝，BBQ鸡肉番茄，地中海橄榄artichoke菜蓟，美式大杂烩牛肉丸青红椒番茄洋葱。
乔治把披萨切成小块，喂给罗丝，维克坐在妈妈的另一侧，为罗丝擦嘴。霭青看着这哥俩伺候罗丝，唉，还挺孝顺的。扭头看看自己的儿子，杰杰手里抓着一块啃，满脸的番茄酱，霭青掰散一个肉丸，塞进杰杰嘴里，“杰杰多吃肉，赶快长大。”
杰杰听的懂，嘴里唔唔的嚼，双手高兴地在小食桌上敲，攥着的披萨满天飞。
喜欢唠叨的安妮自然没闲着，没人搭茬也能说下去，霭青出于礼貌，偶尔接一两句。
吃完，大家挪步到客厅，罗丝回到沙发老地方，乔治和维克把吉他拿起来，给妈妈唱歌，安妮也坐下来听歌，听到熟悉的，也跟着唱，嗓子还不错。
霭青有好久没听乔治唱了，今天他情绪有些低落，“在医院给Tom唱过，现在给妈唱同样的吧。”
这是一首老歌，霭青没听过，Second Chance再次，by 38 Special。
Since you been gone你走以后
I feel my life slipping away我的日子不好过
I look to the sky抬头望天
And everything is turnin' gray一切都灰蒙蒙
All I made was one mistake我只错了一次
How much more will I have to pay还要惩罚多少
Why can't you think it over再考虑考虑
Why can't you forget about the past忘了过去
When love makes this sound babe当爱真挚
A heart needs a second chance再给个机会
Don't put me down babe别拒绝
Can't you see I love you我真的爱你
Since you been gone， I've been in a trance没你的日子浑浑噩噩
This heart needs a second chance再给我个机会吧
Don't say it's over别说结束
I just can't say goodbye别说告别
So this is love我是真爱
Standing in the pouring rain站在雨中
I fooled on you我犯了错
But she never meant a thing可那不算
And I know I ain't got no right我无权
To ask you to sympathize求你可怜
But why can't you think it over只求你再想想
Why can't you forget the past忘了过去
When love makes this sound babe
A heart needs a second chance
Don't put me down babe
Can't you see I love you
Since you been gone， I've been in a trance
This heart needs a second chance
Don't say it's over
I just can't say goodbye我不要离开
I never loved her， I never needed her我从没爱过别人
She was willing and that's all there is to say是她扑我
Don't forsake me， please don't leave me now别抛弃我
A heart needs a second chance再给我个机会
Yeah， you been gone and I've been in a trance没你日子没法过
This heart needs a second chance
Don't say it's over
I just can't say goodbye
Please forgive me and forget it原谅我
I was wrong and I admit it我错了
But why can't we talk it over好好聊聊
Why can't we forget about别再纠结过去
Forget about the past过去就过去了
A heart needs a second chance再给个机会
When love makes this sound babe
A heart needs a second chance
Don't put me down babe
You been gone， I've been in a trance
This heart needs a second chance
Don't say it's over
I just can't say goodbye
A heart needs a second chance
When love makes this sound babe
A heart needs a second chance
A heart needs a second chance
When love makes this sound babe
A heart needs a second chance
A heart needs a second chance
霭青知道了罗丝的过去，再听这歌词，不知道为什么乔治要唱这首，是在替罗丝发声给汤姆吗？
是乔治一直纠结着妈妈的过去？汤姆那么爱着罗丝，无论发生过什么，汤姆肯定是原谅了罗丝的。
以前乔治在大学乐队唱的多是谈情说爱的歌儿，在台上专门为霭青唱时的专注和深情，霭青依然历历在目，后来在电台播音室，挤在在凯文家借宿时，乔治的歌是欢快诙谐的。今天他的声音有些沙哑，有些沉重。哎呀，转眼快十年了，她和乔治都过了热恋期，拖家带口的求安稳生活。家庭里的巨大事件，罗丝的老年痴呆，汤姆的脑梗，维克的无着无落，乔治都揽成自己的责任。
这种沉重的责任感都带到了歌声里，霭青看着歪头睡着的杰杰，还有肚子里的娜娜，都是乔治最关爱的。
霭青正在出神，乔治吉他一转，又是一首老歌的曲调流淌出来，The Living Years by The Machanics。
Every generation每一代人
Blames the one before都埋怨上代
And all of their frustrations他们的失落
Come beating on your door体现在你身上
I know that I'm a prisoner我是囚徒
To all my Father held so dear在父爱的牢笼里
I know that I'm a hostage我是人质
To all his hopes and fears在他的期望和担忧中
I just wish I could have told him in the living years我后悔没有早点告诉他
Oh， crumpled bits of paper揉烂的纸片
Filled with imperfect thought写着幼稚的想法
Stilted conversations尴尬的对话
I'm afraid that's all we've got只能说到此
You say you just don't see it你只是看不到
He says it's perfect sense他说一切都好
You just can't get agreement你无法理解
In this present tense不在同一时段
We all talk a different language话不投机
Talking in defence为自己辩解
Say it loud (say it loud)， say it clear (oh say it clear)大声说出
You can listen as well as you hear你能听取
It's too late (it's too late) when we die (oh when we die)悔之晚矣
To admit we don't see eye to eye承认代沟
So we open up a quarrel勇于面对
Between the present and the past现在和过去
We only sacrifice the future未来为代价
It's the bitterness that lasts自尝苦果
So don't yield to the fortunes不向命运低头
You sometimes see as fate不信因果
It may have a new perspective别样风景
On a different day改天而已
And if you don't give up， and don't give in坚持到底
You may just be okay或许可行
So say it loud， say it clear (oh say it clear)那么就大声喊出来
You can listen as well as you hear倾心聆听
Because it's too late， it's too late (it's too late) when we die (oh when we die)因为悔之晚矣
To admit we don't see eye to eye
I wasn't there that morning我失之交臂
When my Father passed away老父去世
I didn't get to tell him我无法对他说
All the things I had to say我想说的话
I think I caught his spirit只有面对神灵
Later that same year晚些时候
I'm sure I heard his echo听到他的回声
In my baby's new born tears新生的泪水
I just wish I could have told him in the living years后悔生前未语
Say it loud， say it clear (oh say it clear)想说的现在就大声说出来
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late (it's too late) when we die (it's too late when we die)不然后悔晚矣
To admit we don't see eye to eye
So say it， say it， say it loud (say it loud)
Say it clear (come on say it clear)
听着乔治维克和安妮和声唱着“说，说，想说就说，后悔晚矣”，霭青心里一动，刚刚听安妮讲要回家照顾妈妈，自己心里就动了让妈妈爸爸出来转转的念头，又看见乔治维克两人尽心伺候父母，仿佛棒喝一样，霭青暗中对自己说，不管以前和妈妈有什么隔阂，过去的就过去了，她感恩父母的豁达，理解支持她的每个人生决定。霭青没有后悔漂洋过海在他乡异地奋斗，倏忽几年，她有了自己的家，为人之母，方才站在母亲的角度回首过去，她要和妈妈讲，大声的讲，现在就讲，我爱你们，谢谢你们的养育之恩，在你们有生之年，我愿意多陪陪你们。
