"Because,my boy,the lot of Jameray Duval,the poor and friendless lad who succeeded at last,will be your lot,yours and your brother's,and I have brought it upon you.Before very long,dear child,you will be alone in the world,with no one to help or befriend you.While you are still children,I shall leave you,and yet,if only I could wait till you are big enough and know enough to be Marie's guardian!But Ishall not live so long.I love you so much that it makes me very unhappy to think of it.Dear children,if only you do not curse me some day!----""But why should I curse you some day,mother?""Some day,"she said,kissing him on the forehead,"you will find out that I have wronged you.I am going to leave you,here,without money,without"--and she hesitated--"without a father,"she added,and at the word she burst into tears and put the boy from her gently.A sort of intuition told Louis that his mother wished to be alone,and he carried off Marie,now half awake.An hour later,when his brother was in bed,he stole down and out to the summer-house where his mother was sitting.
"Louis!come here."
The words were spoken in tones delicious to his heart.The boy sprang to his mother's arms,and the two held each other in an almost convulsive embrace.
"Cherie,"he said at last,the name by which he often called her,finding that even loving words were too weak to express his feeling,"cherie,why are you afraid that you are going to die?""I am ill,my poor darling;every day I am losing strength,and there is no cure for my illness;I know that.""What is the matter with you?"
"Something that I ought to forget;something that you must never know.
--You must not know what caused my death."
The boy was silent for a while.He stole a glance now and again at his mother;and she,with her eyes raised to the sky,was watching the clouds.It was a sad,sweet moment.Louis could not believe that his mother would die soon,but instinctively he felt trouble which he could not guess.He respected her long musings.If he had been rather older,he would have read happy memories blended with thoughts of repentance,the whole story of a woman's life in that sublime face--the careless childhood,the loveless marriage,a terrible passion,flowers springing up in storm and struck down by the thunderbolt into an abyss from which there is no return.
"Darling mother,"Louis said at last,"why do you hide your pain from me?""My boy,we ought to hide our troubles from strangers,"she said;"we should show them a smiling face,never speak of ourselves to them,nor think about ourselves;and these rules,put in practice in family life,conduce to its happiness.You will have much to bear one day!Ah me!then think of your poor mother who died smiling before your eyes,hiding her sufferings from you,and you will take courage to endure the ills of life."She choked back her tears,and tried to make the boy understand the mechanism of existence,the value of money,the standing and consideration that it gives,and its bearing on social position;the honorable means of gaining a livelihood,and the necessity of a training.Then she told him that one of the chief causes of her sadness and her tears was the thought that,on the morrow of her death,he and Marie would be left almost resourceless,with but a slender stock of money,and no friend but God.
"How quick I must be about learning!"cried Louis,giving her a piteous,searching look.
"Oh!how happy I am!"she said,showering kisses and tears on her son.
"He understands me!--Louis,"she went on,"you will be your brother's guardian,will you not?You promise me that?You are no longer a child!""Yes,I promise,"he said;"but you are not going to die yet--say that you are not going to die!""Poor little ones!"she replied,"love for you keeps the life in me.
And this country is so sunny,the air is so bracing,perhaps----""You make me love Touraine more than ever,"said the child.
From that day,when Mme.Willemsens,foreseeing the approach of death,spoke to Louis of his future,he concentrated his attention on his work,grew more industrious,and less inclined to play than heretofore.When he had coaxed Marie to read a book and to give up boisterous games,there was less noise in the hollow pathways and gardens and terraced walks of La Grenadiere.They adapted their lives to their mother's melancholy.Day by day her face was growing pale and wan,there were hollows now in her temples,the lines in her forehead grew deeper night after night.
August came.The little family had been five months at La Grenadiere,and their whole life was changed.The old servant grew anxious and gloomy as she watched the almost imperceptible symptoms of slow decline in the mistress,who seemed to be kept in life by an impassioned soul and intense love of her children.Old Annette seemed to see that death was very near.That mistress,beautiful still,was more careful of her appearance than she had ever been;she was at pains to adorn her wasted self,and wore paint on her cheeks;but often while she walked on the upper terrace with the children,Annette's wrinkled face would peer out from between the savin trees by the pump.The old woman would forget her work,and stand with wet linen in her hands,scarce able to keep back her tears at the sight of Mme.Willemsens,so little like the enchanting woman she once had been.
The pretty house itself,once so gay and bright,looked melancholy;it was a very quiet house now,and the family seldom left it,for the walk to the bridge was too great an effort for Mme.Willemsens.Louis had almost identified himself,as it were,with his mother,and with his suddenly developed powers of imagination he saw the weariness and exhaustion under the red color,and constantly found reasons for taking some shorter walk.
