After the evening service,he said,'Come,you shall go home with me,and sit just an hour.'But he was better than his word;for after we had drunk tea with Mrs.Williams,he asked me to go up to his study with him,where we sat a long while together in a serene undisturbed frame of mind,sometimes in silence,and sometimes conversing,as we felt ourselves inclined,or more properly speaking,as HE was inclined;for during all the course of my long intimacy with him,my respectful attention never abated,and my wish to hear him was such,that I constantly watched every dawning of communication from that great and illuminated mind.
He again advised me to keep a journal fully and minutely,but not to mention such trifles as,that meat was too much or too little done,or that the weather was fair or rainy.He had,till very near his death,a contempt for the notion that the weather affects the human frame.
I told him that our friend Goldsmith had said to me,that he had come too late into the world,for that Pope and other poets had taken up the places in the Temple of Fame;so that,as but a few at any period can possess poetical reputation,a man of genius can now hardly acquire it.JOHNSON.'That is one of the most sensible things I have ever heard of Goldsmith.It is difficult to get literary fame,and it is every day growing more difficult.Ah,Sir,that should make a man think of securing happiness in another world,which all who try sincerely for it may attain.In comparison of that,how little are all other things!The belief of immortality is impressed upon all men,and all men act under an impression of it,however they may talk,and though,perhaps,they may be scarcely sensible of it.'I said,it appeared to me that some people had not the least notion of immortality;and Imentioned a distinguished gentleman of our acquaintance.JOHNSON.
'Sir,if it were not for the notion of immortality,he would cut a throat to fill his pockets.'When I quoted this to Beauclerk,who knew much more of the gentleman than we did,he said,in his acid manner,'He would cut a throat to fill his pockets,if it were not for fear of being hanged.'
He was pleased to say,'If you come to settle here,we will have one day in the week on which we will meet by ourselves.That is the happiest conversation where there is no competition,no vanity,but a calm quiet interchange of sentiments.'In his private register this evening is thus marked,'Boswell sat with me till night;we had some serious talk.'It also appears from the same record,that after I left him he was occupied in religious duties,in 'giving Francis,his servant,some directions for preparation to communicate;in reviewing his life,and resolving on better conduct.'The humility and piety which he discovers on such occasions,is truely edifying.No saint,however,in the course of his religious warfare,was more sensible of the unhappy failure of pious resolves,than Johnson.He said one day,talking to an acquaintance on this subject,'Sir Hell is paved with good intentions.'
On Sunday,April 16,being Easter Day,after having attended the solemn service at St.Paul's,I dined with Dr.Johnson and Mrs.
Williams.I maintained that Horace was wrong in placing happiness in Nil admirari,for that I thought admiration one of the most agreeable of all our feelings;and I regretted that I had lost much of my disposition to admire,which people generally do as they advance in life.JOHNSON.'Sir,as a man advances in life,he gets what is better than admiration--judgement,to estimate things at their true value.'I still insisted that admiration was more pleasing than judgement,as love is more pleasing than friendship.
The feeling of friendship is like that of being comfortably filled with roast beef;love,like being enlivened with champagne.
JOHNSON.'No,Sir;admiration and love are like being intoxicated with champagne;judgement and friendship like being enlivened.
Waller has hit upon the same thought with you:but I don't believe you have borrowed from Waller.I wish you would enable yourself to borrow more.'
He then took occasion to enlarge on the advantages of reading,and combated the idle superficial notion,that knowledge enough may be acquired in conversation.'The foundation (said he,)must be laid by reading.General principles must be had from books,which,however,must be brought to the test of real life.In conversation you never get a system.What is said upon a subject is to be gathered from a hundred people.The parts of a truth,which a man gets thus,are at such a distance from each other that he never attains to a full view.'
On Tuesday,April 15,he and I were engaged to go with Sir Joshua Reynolds to dine with Mr.Cambridge,at his beautiful villa on the banks of the Thames,near Twickenham.Dr.Johnson's tardiness was such,that Sir Joshua,who had an appointment at Richmond,early in the day,was obliged to go by himself on horseback,leaving his coach to Johnson and me.Johnson was in such good spirits,that every thing seemed to please him as we drove along.
Our conversation turned on a variety of subjects.He thought portrait-painting an improper employment for a woman.'Publick practice of any art,(he observed,)and staring in men's faces,is very indelicate in a female.'I happened to start a question,whether,when a man knows that some of his intimate friends are invited to the house of another friend,with whom they are all equally intimate,he may join them without an invitation.JOHNSON.
'No,Sir;he is not to go when he is not invited.They may be invited on purpose to abuse him'(smiling).
