She drank again,a slow train of warmth lighting in her veins and stealing through her body until even her finger tips tingled.What a blessed feeling,this kindly fire.It seemed to penetrate even her ice-locked heart and strength came coursing back into her body.Seeing Gerald's puzzled hurt face,she patted his knee again and managed an imitation of the pert smile he used to love.
“How could it make me tipsy,Pa?I'm your daughter.Haven't I inherited the steadiest head in Clayton County?”
He almost smiled into her tired face.The whisky was bracing him too.She handed it back to him.
“Now you're going to take another drink and then I am going to take you upstairs and put you to bed.”
She caught herself.Why,this was the way she talked to Wade—she should not address her father like this.It was disrespectful.But he hung on her words.
“Yes,put you to bed,”she added lightly,“and give you another drink—maybe all the dipper and make you go to sleep.You need sleep and Katie Scarlett is here,so you need not worry about anything.Drink.”
He drank again obediently and,slipping her arm through his,she pulled him to his feet.
“Pork...”
Pork took the gourd in one hand and Gerald's arm in the other.Scarlett picked up the flaring candle and the three walked slowly into the dark hall and up the winding steps toward Gerald's room.
The room where Suellen and Carreen lay mumbling and tossing on the same bed stank vilely with the smell of the twisted rag burning in a saucer of bacon fat,which provided the only light.When Scarlett first opened the door the thick atmosphere of the room,with all windows closed and the air reeking with sick-room odors,medicine smells and stinking grease,almost made her faint.Doctors might say that fresh air was fatal in a sick room but if she were to sit here,she must have air or die.She opened the three windows,bringing in the smell of oak leaves and earth,but the fresh air could do little toward dispelling the sickening odors which had accumulated for weeks in this close room.
Carreen and Suellen,emaciated and white,slept brokenly and awoke to mumble with wide,staring eyes in the tall four-poster bed where they had whispered together in better,happier days.In the corner of the room was an empty bed,a narrow French Empire bed with curling head and foot,a bed which Ellen had brought from Savannah.This was where Ellen had lain.
Scarlett sat beside the two girls,staring at them stupidly.The whisky taken on a stomach long empty was playing tricks on her.Sometimes her sisters seemed far away and tiny and their incoherent voices came to her like the buzz of insects.And again,they loomed large,rushing at her with lightning speed.She was tired,tired to the bone.She could lie down and sleep for days.
If she could only lie down and sleep and wake to feel Ellen gently shaking her arm and saying:“It is late,Scarlett.You must not be so lazy.”But she could not ever do that again.If there were only Ellen,someone older than she,wiser and unweary,to whom she could go!Someone in whose lap she could lay her head,someone on whose shoulders she could rest her burdens!
The door opened softly and Dilcey entered,Melanie's baby held to her breast,the gourd of whisky in her hand.In the smoky,uncertain light,she seemed thinner than when Scarlett last saw her and the Indian blood was more evident in her face.The high cheek bones were more prominent,the hawk-bridged nose was sharper and her copper skin gleamed with a brighter hue.Her faded calico dress was open to the waist and her large bronze breast exposed.Held close against her,Melanie's baby pressed his pale rosebud mouth greedily to the dark nipple,sucking,gripping tiny fists against the soft flesh like a kitten in the warm fur of its mother's belly.
Scarlett rose unsteadily and put a hand on Dilcey's arm.
“It was good of you to stay,Dilcey.”
“How could I go off wid them trashy niggers,Miss Scarlett,after yo'pa been so good to buy me and my little Prissy and yo'ma been so kine?”
“Sit down,Dilcey.The baby can eat all right,then?And how is Miss Melanie?”
“Nuthin'wrong wid this chile 'cept he hongry,and whut it take to feed a hongry chile I got.No'm,Miss Melanie is all right.She ain'gwine die,Miss Scarlett.Doan you fret yo'seff.I seen too many,white and black,lak her.She mighty tired and nervous like and scared fo'this baby.But I hesh her and give her some of whut was lef'in that go'de and she sleepin'.”
So the corn whisky had been used by the whole family!Scarlett thought hysterically that perhaps she had better give a drink to little Wade and see if it would stop his hiccoughs—And Melanie would not die.And when Ashley came home—if he did come home....No,she would think of that later too.So much to think of—later!So many things to unravel—to decide.If only she could put off the hour of reckoning forever!She started suddenly as a creaking noise and a rhythmic “Ker-bunk—ker-bunk—”broke the stillness of the air outside.
“That's Mammy gettin'the water to sponge off the young Misses.They takes a heap of bathin',”explained Dilcey,propping the gourd on the table between medicine bottles and a glass.
Scarlett laughed suddenly.Her nerves must be shredded if the noise of the well windlass,bound up in her earliest memories,could frighten her.Dilcey looked at her steadily as she laughed,her face immobile in its dignity,but Scarlett felt that Dilcey understood.She sank back in her chair.If she could only be rid of her tight stays,the collar that choked her and the slippers still full of sand and gravel that blistered her feet.
