With her inexperience,operating the new mill was no easy job and competition was keener now than it had been at first,so she was usually tired and worried and cross when she came home at nights.And when Frank would cough apologetically and say:“Sugar,I wouldn't do this,”or “I wouldn't do that,Sugar,if I were you,”it was all she could do to restrain herself from flying into a rage,and frequently she did not restrain herself.If he didn't have the gumption to get out and make some money,why was he always finding fault with her?And the things he nagged her about were so silly!What difference did it make in times like these if she was being unwomanly?Especially when her unwomanly sawmill was bringing in money they needed so badly,she and the family and Tara,and Frank too.
Frank wanted rest and quiet.The war in which he had served so conscientiously had wrecked his health,cost him his fortune and made him an old man.He regretted none of these things and after four years of war,all he asked of life was peace and kindliness,loving faces about him and the approval of friends.He soon found that domestic peace had its price,and that price was letting Scarlett have her own way,no matter what she might wish to do.So,because he was tired,he bought peace at her own terms.Sometimes,he thought it was worth it to have her smiling when she opened the front door in the cold twilights,kissing him on the ear or the nose or some other inappropriate place,to feel her head snuggling drowsily on his shoulder at night under warm quilts.Home life could be so pleasant when Scarlett was having her own way.But the peace he gained was hollow,only an outward semblance,for he had purchased it at the cost of everything he held to be right in married life.
“A woman ought to pay more attention to her home and her family and not be gadding about like a man,”he thought.“Now,if she just had a baby—”
He smiled when he thought of a baby and he thought of a baby very often.Scarlett had been most outspoken about not wanting a child,but then babies seldom waited to be invited.Frank knew that many women said they didn't want babies but that was all foolishness and fear.If Scarlett had a baby,she would love it and be content to stay home and tend it like other women.Then she would be forced to sell the mill and his problems would be ended.All women needed babies to make them completely happy and Frank knew that Scarlett was not happy.Ignorant as he was of women,he was not so blind that he could not see she was unhappy at times.
Sometimes he awoke at night and heard the soft sound of tears muffled in the pillow.The first time he had waked to feel the bed shaking with her sobbing,he had questioned,in alarm:“Sugar,what is it?”and had been rebuked by a passionate cry:“Oh,let me alone!”
Yes,a baby would make her happy and would take her mind off things she had no business fooling with.Sometimes Frank sighed,thinking he had caught a tropic bird,all flame and jewel color,when a wren would have served him just as well.In fact,much better.
Chapter 37
It was on a wild wet night in April that Tony Fontaine rode in from Jonesboro on a lathered horse that was half dead from exhaustion and came knocking at their door,rousing her and Frank from sleep with their hearts in their throats.Then for the second time in four months,Scarlett was made to feel acutely what Reconstruction in all its implications meant,made to understand more completely what was in Will's mind when he said “Our troubles have just begun,”to know that the bleak words of Ashley,spoken in the wind-swept orchard of Tara,were true:“This that's facing all of us is worse than war—worse than prison—worse than death.”
The first time she had come face to face with Reconstruction was when she learned that Jonas Wilkerson with the aid of the Yankees could evict her from Tara.But Tony's advent brought it all home to her in a far more terrifying manner.Tony came in the dark and the lashing rain and in a few minutes he was gone back into the night forever,but in the brief interval between he raised the curtain on a scene of new horror,a curtain that she felt hopelessly would never be lowered again.
That stormy night when the knocker hammered on the door with such hurried urgency,she stood on the landing,clutching her wrapper to her and,looking down into the hall below,had one glimpse of Tony's swarthy saturnine face before he leaned forward and blew out the candle in Frank's hand.She hurried down in the darkness to grasp his cold wet hand and hear him whisper:“They're after me—going to Texas—my horse is about dead—and I'm about starved.Ashley said you'd—Don't light the candle!Don't wake the darkies....I don't want to get you folks in trouble if I can help it.”
With the kitchen blinds drawn and all the shades pulled down to the sills,he permitted a light and he talked to Frank in swift jerky sentences as Scarlett hurried about,trying to scrape together a meal for him.
He was without a greatcoat and soaked to the skin.He was hatless and his black hair was plastered to his little skull.But the merriment of the Fontaine boys,a chilling merriment that night,was in his little dancing eyes as he gulped down the whisky she brought him.Scarlett thanked God that Aunt Pittypat was snoring undisturbed upstairs.She would certainly swoon if she saw this apparition.
“One damned bast—Scallawag less,”said Tony,holding out his glass for another drink.“I've ridden hard and it'll cost me my skin if I don't get out of here quick,but it was worth it.By God,yes!I'm going to try to get to Texas and lay low there.Ashley was with me in Jonesboro and he told me to come to you all.Got to have another horse,Frank,and some money.My horse is nearly dead—all the way up here at a dead run—and like a fool I went out of the house today like a bat out of hell without a coat or hat or a cent of money.Not that there's much money in our house.”
