At first I think somewhat strange, but soon I see that there be only one such byroad. It is used but little, and very different from the coach road from the Bukovina to Bistritz, which is more wide and hard, and more of use.
So we came down this road. When we meet other ways, not always were we sure that they were roads at all, for they be neglect and light snow have fallen, the horses know and they only.
I give rein to them, and they go on so patient. By and by we find all the things which Jonathan have note in that wonderful diary of him. Then we go on for long, long hours and hours.
At the first, I tell Madam Mina to sleep. She try, and she succeed. She sleep all the time, till at the last, I feel myself to suspicious grow, and attempt to wake her.
But she sleep on, and I may not wake her though I try.
I do not wish to try too hard lest I harm her. For I know that she have suffer much, and sleep at times be all-in-all to her.
I think I drowse myself, for all of sudden I feel guilt, as though I have done something. I find myself bolt up, with the reins in my hand, and the good horses go along jog, jog, just as ever. I look down and find Madam Mina still asleep.
It is now not far off sunset time, and over the snow the light of the sun flow in big yellow flood, so that we throw great long shadow on where the mountain rise so steep.
For we are going up, and up, and all is oh, so wild and rocky, as though it were the end of the world.
Then I arouse Madam Mina. This time she wake with not much trouble, and then I try to put her to hypnotic sleep.
But she sleep not, being as though I were not. Still I try and try, till all at once I find her and myself in dark, so I look round, and find that the sun have gone down.
Madam Mina laugh, and I turn and look at her. She is now quite awake, and look so well as I never saw her since that night at Carfax when we first enter the Count's house.
I am amaze, and not at ease then. But she is so bright and tender and thoughtful for me that I forget all fear.
I light a fire, for we have brought supply of wood with us, and she prepare food while I undo the horses and set them, tethered in shelter, to feed. Then when I return to the fire she have my supper ready. I go to help her, but she smile, and tell me that she have eat already. That she was so hungry that she would not wait. I like it not, and I have grave doubts.
But I fear to affright her, and so I am silent of it.
She help me and I eat alone, and then we wrap in fur and lie beside the fire, and I tell her to sleep while I watch.
But presently I forget all of watching. And when I sudden remember that I watch, I find her lying quiet, but awake, and looking at me with so bright eyes. Once, twice more the same occur, and I get much sleep till before morning.
When I wake I try to hypnotize her, but alas!
Though she shut her eyes obedient, she may not sleep.
The sun rise up, and up, and up, and then sleep come to her too late, but so heavy that she will not wake. I have to lift her up, and place her sleeping in the carriage when I have harnessed the horses and made all ready. Madam still sleep, and she look in her sleep more healthy and more redder than before.
And I like it not. And I am afraid, afraid, afraid! I am afraid of all things, even to think but I must go on my way.
The stake we play for is life and death, or more than these, and we must not flinch.
5 November, morning.--Let me be accurate in everything, for though you and I have seen some strange things together, you may at the first think that I, Van Helsing, am mad.
That the many horrors and the so long strain on nerves has at the last turn my brain.
All yesterday we travel, always getting closer to the mountains, and moving into a more and more wild and desert land.
There are great, frowning precipices and much falling water, and Nature seem to have held sometime her carnival.
Madam Mina still sleep and sleep. And though I did have hunger and appeased it, I could not waken her, even for food.
I began to fear that the fatal spell of the place was upon her, tainted as she is with that Vampire baptism.
"Well," said I to myself, "if it be that she sleep all the day, it shall also be that I do not sleep at night."
As we travel on the rough road, for a road of an ancient and imperfect kind there was, I held down my head and slept.
Again I waked with a sense of guilt and of time passed, and found Madam Mina still sleeping, and the sun low down.
But all was indeed changed. The frowning mountains seemed further away, and we were near the top of a steep rising hill, on summit of which was such a castle as Jonathan tell of in his diary.
At once I exulted and feared. For now, for good or ill, the end was near.
I woke Madam Mina, and again tried to hypnotize her, but alas! unavailing till too late. Then, ere the great dark came upon us, for even after down sun the heavens reflected the gone sun on the snow, and all was for a time in a great twilight.
I took out the horses and fed them in what shelter I could.
Then I make a fire, and near it I make Madam Mina, now awake and more charming than ever, sit comfortable amid her rugs.
I got ready food, but she would not eat, simply saying that she had not hunger. I did not press her, knowing her unavailingness.
But I myself eat, for I must needs now be strong for all.
Then, with the fear on me of what might be, I drew a ring so big for her comfort, round where Madam Mina sat.
And over the ring I passed some of the wafer, and I broke it fine so that all was well guarded. She sat still all the time, so still as one dead. And she grew whiter and even whiter till the snow was not more pale, and no word she said.
But when I drew near, she clung to me, and I could know that the poor soul shook her from head to feet with a tremor that was pain to feel.
I said to her presently, when she had grown more quiet, "Will you not come over to the fire?" for I wished to make a test of what she could.
She rose obedient, but when she have made a step she stopped, and stood as one stricken.
