She sipped the hot coffee, whose fragrance flew around them like bees murmuring around flowers, in the snowy air, she drank tiny sips of the Heidelbeerwasser, she ate the cold, sweet, creamy wafers.How good everything was! How perfect everything tasted and smelled and sounded, here in this utter stillness of snow and falling twilight.
`You are going away tomorrow?' his voice came at last.
`Yes.'
There was a pause, when the evening seemed to rise in its silent, ringing pallor infinitely high, to the infinite which was near at hand.
` Wohin? '
That was the question -- wohin? Whither? Wohin? What a lovely word! She never wanted it answered.Let it chime for ever.
`I don't know,' she said, smiling at him.
He caught the smile from her.
`One never does,' he said.
`One never does,' she repeated.
There was a silence, wherein he ate biscuits rapidly, as a rabbit eats leaves.
`But,' he laughed, `where will you take a ticket to?'
`Oh heaven!' she cried.`One must take a ticket.'
Here was a blow.She saw herself at the wicket, at the railway station.
Then a relieving thought came to her.She breathed freely.
`But one needn't go,' she cried.
`Certainly not,' he said.
`I mean one needn't go where one's ticket says.'
That struck him.One might take a ticket, so as not to travel to the destination it indicated.One might break off, and avoid the destination.
A point located.That was an idea!
`Then take a ticket to London,' he said.`One should never go there.'
`Right,' she answered.
He poured a little coffee into a tin can.
`You won't tell me where you will go?' he asked.
`Really and truly,' she said, `I don't know.It depends which way the wind blows.'
He looked at her quizzically, then he pursed up his lips, like Zephyrus, blowing across the snow.
`It goes towards Germany,' he said.
`I believe so,' she laughed.
Suddenly, they were aware of a vague white figure near them.It was Gerald.Gudrun's heart leapt in sudden terror, profound terror.She rose to her feet.
`They told me where you were,' came Gerald's voice, like a judgment in the whitish air of twilight.
` Maria! You come like a ghost,' exclaimed Loerke.
Gerald did not answer.His presence was unnatural and ghostly to them.
Loerke shook the flask -- then he held it inverted over the snow.Only a few brown drops trickled out.
`All gone!' he said.
To Gerald, the smallish, odd figure of the German was distinct and objective, as if seen through field glasses.And he disliked the small figure exceedingly, he wanted it removed.
Then Loerke rattled the box which held the biscuits.
`Biscuits there are still,' he said.
And reaching from his seated posture in the sledge, he handed them to Gudrun.She fumbled, and took one.He would have held them to Gerald, but Gerald so definitely did not want to be offered a biscuit, that Loerke, rather vaguely, put the box aside.Then he took up the small bottle, and held it to the light.
`Also there is some Schnapps,' he said to himself.
Then suddenly, he elevated the battle gallantly in the air, a strange, grotesque figure leaning towards Gudrun, and said:
`Gnadiges Fraulein,' he said, `wohl --'
There was a crack, the bottle was flying, Loerke had started back, the three stood quivering in violent emotion.
Loerke turned to Gerald, a devilish leer on his bright-skinned face.
`Well done!' he said, in a satirical demoniac frenzy.`C'est le sport, sans doute.'
The next instant he was sitting ludicrously in the snow, Gerald's fist having rung against the side of his head.But Loerke pulled himself together, rose, quivering, looking full at Gerald, his body weak and furtive, but his eyes demoniacal with satire.
`Vive le heros, vive --'
But he flinched, as, in a black flash Gerald's fist came upon him, banged into the other side of his head, and sent him aside like a broken straw.
But Gudrun moved forward.She raised her clenched hand high, and brought it down, with a great downward stroke on to the face and on to the breast of Gerald.
A great astonishment burst upon him, as if the air had broken.Wide, wide his soul opened, in wonder, feeling the pain.Then it laughed, turning, with strong hands outstretched, at last to take the apple of his desire.
At last he could finish his desire.
He took the throat of Gudrun between his hands, that were hard and indomitably powerful.And her throat was beautifully, so beautifully soft, save that, within, he could feel the slippery chords of her life.And this he crushed, this he could crush.What bliss! Oh what bliss, at last, what satisfaction, at last! The pure zest of satisfaction filled his soul.He was watching the unconsciousness come unto her swollen face, watching the eyes roll back.How ugly she was! What a fulfilment, what a satisfaction! How good this was, oh how good it was, what a God-given gratification, at last!
