Kit's first pack was a success.Up to Finnegan's Crossing they had managed to get Indians to carry the twenty-five hundred-pound outfit.From that point their own backs must do the work.They planned to move forward at the rate of a mile a day.It looked easy--on paper.Since John Bellew was to stay in camp and do the cooking, he would be unable to make more than an occasional pack; so, to each of the three young men fell the task of carrying eight hundred pounds one mile each day.If they made fifty-pound packs, it meant a daily walk of sixteen miles loaded and of fifteen miles light--"Because we don't back-trip the last time," Kit explained the pleasant discovery; eighty-pound packs meant nineteen miles travel each day; and hundred-pound packs meant only fifteen miles.
"I don't like walking," said Kit."Therefore I shall carry one hundred pounds." He caught the grin of incredulity on his uncle's face, and added hastily: "Of course I shall work up to it.A fellow's got to learn the ropes and tricks.I'll start with fifty."He did, and ambled gaily along the trail.He dropped the sack at the next camp-site and ambled back.It was easier than he had thought.But two miles had rubbed off the velvet of his strength and exposed the underlying softness.His second pack was sixty-five pounds.It was more difficult, and he no longer ambled.Several times, following the custom of all packers, he sat down on the ground, resting the pack behind him on a rock or stump.With the third pack he became bold.He fastened the straps to a ninety-five- pound sack of beans and started.At the end of a hundred yards he felt that he must collapse.He sat down and mopped his face.
"Short hauls and short rests," he muttered."That's the trick."Sometimes he did not make a hundred yards, and each time he struggled to his feet for another short haul the pack became undeniably heavier.He panted for breath, and the sweat streamed from him.Before he had covered a quarter of a mile he stripped off his woollen shirtand hung it on a tree.A little later he discarded his hat.At the end of half a mile he decided he was finished.He had never exerted himself so in his life, and he knew that he was finished.As he sat and panted, his gaze fell upon the big revolver and the heavy cartridge-belt.
"Ten pounds of junk," he sneered, as he unbuckled it.
He did not bother to hang it on a tree, but flung it into the underbush.And as the steady tide of packers flowed by him, up trail and down, he noted that the other tender-feet were beginning to shed their shooting irons.
His short hauls decreased.At times a hundred feet was all he could stagger, and then the ominous pounding of his heart against his ear- drums and the sickening totteriness of his knees compelled him to rest.And his rests grew longer.But his mind was busy.It was a twenty-eight mile portage, which represented as many days, and this, by all accounts, was the easiest part of it."Wait till you get to Chilcoot," others told him as they rested and talked, "where you climb with hands and feet.""They ain't going to be no Chilcoot," was his answer."Not for me.Long before that I'll be at peace in my little couch beneath the moss."A slip, and a violent wrenching effort at recovery, frightened him.He felt that everything inside him had been torn asunder.
"If ever I fall down with this on my back I'm a goner," he told another packer.
"That's nothing," came the answer."Wait till you hit the Canyon.You'll have to cross a raging torrent on a sixty-foot pine tree.No guide ropes, nothing, and the water boiling at the sag of the log to your knees.If you fall with a pack on your back, there's no getting out of the straps.You just stay there and drown.""Sounds good to me," he retorted; and out of the depths of his exhaustion he almost half meant it.
"They drown three or four a day there," the man assured him."I helped fish a German out there.He had four thousand in greenbacks on him.""Cheerful, I must say," said Kit, battling his way to his feet and tottering on.
He and the sack of beans became a perambulating tragedy.It reminded him of the old man of the sea who sat on Sinbad's neck.And this was one of those intensely masculine vacations, he meditated.Compared with it, the servitude to O'Hara was sweet.Again and again he was nearly seduced by the thought of abandoning the sack of beans in the brush and of sneaking around the camp to the beach and catching a steamer for civilization.But he didn't.Somewhere in him was the strain of the hard, and he repeated over and over to himself that what other men could do, he could.It became a nightmare chant, and he gibbered it to those that passed him on the trail.At other times, resting, he watched and envied the stolid, mule-footed Indians that plodded by under heavier packs.They never seemed to rest, but went on and on with a steadiness and certitude that was to him appalling.
He sat and cursed--he had no breath for it when under way--and fought the temptation to sneak back to San Francisco.Before the mile pack was ended he ceased cursing and took to crying.The tears were tears of exhaustion and of disgust with self.If ever a man was a wreck, he was.As the end of the pack came in sight, he strained himself in desperation, gained the camp-site, and pitched forward on his face, the beans on his back.It did not kill him, but he lay for fifteen minutes before he could summon sufficient shreds of strength to release himself from the straps.Then he became deathly sick, and was so found by Robbie, who had similar troubles of his own.It was this sickness of Robbie that braced him up.
"What other men can do, we can do," Kit told him, though down in his heart he wondered whether or not he was bluffing.
