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第33章 A GRUESOME DANCE(1)

I rose to resume my journey,and walked many a desert mile.How I longed for a mountain,or even a tall rock,from whose summit Imight see across the dismal plain or the dried-up channels to some bordering hope!Yet what could such foresight have availed me?

That which is within a man,not that which lies beyond his vision,is the main factor in what is about to befall him:the operation upon him is the event.Foreseeing is not understanding,else surely the prophecy latent in man would come oftener to the surface!

The sun was half-way to the horizon when I saw before me a rugged rocky ascent;but ere I reached it my desire to climb was over,and I longed to lie down.By that time the sun was almost set,and the air had begun to grow dark.At my feet lay a carpet of softest,greenest moss,couch for a king:I threw myself upon it,and weariness at once began to ebb,for,the moment my head was down,the third time I heard below me many waters,playing broken airs and ethereal harmonies with the stones of their buried channels.

Loveliest chaos of music-stuff the harp aquarian kept sending up to my ears!What might not a H鋘del have done with that ever-recurring gurgle and bell-like drip,to the mingling and mutually destructive melodies their common refrain!

As I lay listening,my eyes went wandering up and down the rocky slope abrupt above me,reading on its face the record that down there,ages ago,rushed a cataract,filling the channels that had led me to its foot.My heart swelled at the thought of the splendid tumult,where the waves danced revelling in helpless fall,to mass their music in one organ-roar below.But soon the hidden brooks lulled me to sleep,and their lullabies mingled with my dreams.

I woke before the sun,and eagerly climbed to see what lay beyond.

Alas,nothing but a desert of finest sand!Not a trace was left of the river that had plunged adown the rocks!The powdery drift had filled its course to the level of the dreary expanse!As Ilooked back I saw that the river had divided into two branches as it fell,that whose bank I had now followed to the foot of the rocky scaur,and that which first I crossed to the Evil Wood.The wood I descried between the two on the far horizon.Before me and to the left,the desert stretched beyond my vision,but far to the right I could see a lift in the sky-line,giving hope of the forest to which my hostess had directed me.

I sat down,and sought in my pocket the half-loaf I had brought with me--then first to understand what my hostess had meant concerning it.Verily the bread was not for the morrow:it had shrunk and hardened to a stone!I threw it away,and set out again.

About noon I came to a few tamarisk and juniper trees,and then to a few stunted firs.As I went on,closer thickets and larger firs met me,and at length I was in just such a forest of pines and other trees as that in which the Little Ones found their babies,and believed I had returned upon a farther portion of the same.But what mattered WHERE while EVERYWHERE was the same as NOWHERE!I had not yet,by doing something in it,made ANYWHERE into a place!Iwas not yet alive;I was only dreaming I lived!I was but a consciousness with an outlook!Truly I had been nothing else in the world I had left,but now I knew the fact!I said to myself that if in this forest I should catch the faint gleam of the mirror,I would turn far aside lest it should entrap me unawares,and give me back to my old existence:here I might learn to be something by doing something!I could not endure the thought of going back,with so many beginnings and not an end achieved.The Little Ones would meet what fate was appointed them;the awful witch I should never meet;the dead would ripen and arise without me;I should but wake to know that I had dreamed,and that all my going was nowhither!Iwould rather go on and on than come to such a close!

I went deeper into the wood:I was weary,and would rest in it.

The trees were now large,and stood in regular,almost geometric,fashion,with roomy spaces between.There was little undergrowth,and I could see a long way in every direction.The forest was like a great church,solemn and silent and empty,for I met nothing on two feet or four that day.Now and then,it is true,some swift thing,and again some slow thing,would cross the space on which my eye happened that moment to settle;but it was always at some distance,and only enhanced the sense of wideness and vacancy.Iheard a few birds,and saw plenty of butterflies,some of marvellously gorgeous colouring and combinations of colour,some of a pure and dazzling whiteness.

Coming to a spot where the pines stood farther apart and gave room for flowering shrubs,and hoping it a sign of some dwelling near,Itook the direction where yet more and more roses grew,for I was hungry after the voice and face of my kind--after any live soul,indeed,human or not,which I might in some measure understand.

What a hell of horror,I thought,to wander alone,a bare existence never going out of itself,never widening its life in another life,but,bound with the cords of its poor peculiarities,lying an eternal prisoner in the dungeon of its own being!I began to learn that it was impossible to live for oneself even,save in the presence of others--then,alas,fearfully possible!evil was only through good!

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