"Then she loves me!my fears were all nonsense!"said Lucien to himself."She is going to present me to her cousin this very evening."He jumped for joy.He would spend the day that separated him from the happy evening as joyously as might be.He dashed out in the direction of the Tuileries,dreaming of walking there until it was time to dine at Very's.And now,behold Lucien frisking and skipping,light of foot because light of heart,on his way to the Terrasse des Feuillants to take a look at the people of quality on promenade there.Pretty women walk arm-in-arm with men of fashion,their adorers,couples greet each other with a glance as they pass;how different it is from the terrace at Beaulieu!How far finer the birds on this perch than the Angouleme species!It is as if you beheld all the colors that glow in the plumage of the feathered tribes of India and America,instead of the sober European families.
Those were two wretched hours that Lucien spent in the Garden of the Tuileries.A violent revulsion swept through him,and he sat in judgment upon himself.
In the first place,not a single one of these gilded youths wore a swallow-tail coat.The few exceptions,one or two poor wretches,a clerk here and there,an annuitant from the Marais,could be ruled out on the score of age;and hard upon the discovery of a distinction between morning and evening dress,the poet's quick sensibility and keen eyes saw likewise that his shabby old clothes were not fit to be seen;the defects in his coat branded that garment as ridiculous;the cut was old-fashioned,the color was the wrong shade of blue,the collar outrageously ungainly,the coat tails,by dint of long wear,overlapped each other,the buttons were reddened,and there were fatal white lines along the seams.Then his waistcoat was too short,and so grotesquely provincial,that he hastily buttoned his coat over it;and,finally,no man of any pretension to fashion wore nankeen trousers.Well-dressed men wore charming fancy materials or immaculate white,and every one had straps to his trousers,while the shrunken hems of Lucien's nether garments manifested a violent antipathy for the heels of boots which they wedded with obvious reluctance.Lucien wore a white cravat with embroidered ends;his sister had seen that M.
du Hautoy and M.de Chandour wore such things,and hastened to make similar ones for her brother.Here,no one appeared to wear white cravats of a morning except a few grave seniors,elderly capitalists,and austere public functionaries,until,in the street on the other side of the railings,Lucien noticed a grocer's boy walking along the Rue de Rivoli with a basket on his head;him the man of Angouleme detected in the act of sporting a cravat,with both ends adorned by the handiwork of some adored shop-girl.The sight was a stab to Lucien's breast;penetrating straight to that organ as yet undefined,the seat of our sensibility,the region whither,since sentiment has had any existence,the sons of men carry their hands in any excess of joy or anguish.Do not accuse this chronicle of puerility.The rich,to be sure,never having experienced sufferings of this kind,may think them incredibly petty and small;but the agonies of less fortunate mortals are as well worth our attention as crises and vicissitudes in the lives of the mighty and privileged ones of earth.
Is not the pain equally great for either?Suffering exalts all things.
And,after all,suppose that we change the terms and for a suit of clothes,more or less fine,put instead a ribbon,or a star,or a title;have not brilliant careers been tormented by reason of such apparent trifles as these?Add,moreover,that for those people who must seem to have that which they have not,the question of clothes is of enormous importance,and not unfrequently the appearance of possession is the shortest road to possession at a later day.
A cold sweat broke out over Lucien as he bethought himself that to-night he must make his first appearance before the Marquise in this dress--the Marquise d'Espard,relative of a First Gentleman of the Bedchamber,a woman whose house was frequented by the most illustrious among illustrious men in every field.
"I look like an apothecary's son,a regular shop-drudge,"he raged inwardly,watching the youth of the Faubourg Saint-Germain pass under his eyes;graceful,spruce,fashionably dressed,with a certain uniformity of air,a sameness due to a fineness of contour,and a certain dignity of carriage and expression;though,at the same time,each one differed from the rest in the setting by which he had chosen to bring his personal characteristics into prominence.Each one made the most of his personal advantages.Young men in Paris understand the art of presenting themselves quite as well as women.Lucien had inherited from his mother the invaluable physical distinction of race,but the metal was still in the ore,and not set free by the craftsman's hand.
His hair was badly cut.Instead of holding himself upright with an elastic corset,he felt that he was cooped up inside a hideous shirt-collar;he hung his dejected head without resistance on the part of a limp cravat.What woman could guess that a handsome foot was hidden by the clumsy boots which he had brought from Angouleme?What young man could envy him his graceful figure,disguised by the shapeless blue sack which hitherto he had mistakenly believed to be a coat?What bewitching studs he saw on those dazzling white shirt fronts,his own looked dingy by comparison;and how marvelously all these elegant persons were gloved,his own gloves were only fit for a policeman!
