She had once or twice suggested to Elizabeth the possibility of his being partial to her,but Elizabeth always laughed at the idea;and Mrs Collins did not think it right to press the subject,from the danger of raising expectations which might only end in disappointment;for in her opinion it admitted not of a doubt,that all her friend's dislike would vanish,if she could suppose him to be in her power.
In her kind schemes for Elizabeth,she sometimes planned her marrying Colonel Fitzwilliam.He was beyond comparison the pleasantest man;he certainly admired her,and his situation in life was most eligible;but,to counterbalance these advantages,Mr Darcy had considerable patronage in the church,and his cousin could have none at all.
Chapter 33
More than once did Elizabeth in her ramble within the park,unexpectedly meet Mr Darcy.-She felt all the perverseness of the mischance that should bring him where no one else was brought;and to prevent its ever happening again,took care to inform him at first that it was a favourite haunt of hers.-How it could occur a second time,therefore,was very odd!-Yet it did,and even a third.It seemed like wilful ill nature,or a voluntary penance,for on these occasions it was not merely a few formal inquiries and an awkward pause and then away,but he actually thought it necessary to turn back and walk with her.He never said a great deal,nor did she give herself the trouble of talking or of listening much;but it struck her in the course of their third rencontre that he was asking some odd unconnected questions-about her pleasure in being at Hunsford,her love of solitary walks,and her opinion of Mr and Mrs Collins's happiness;and that in speaking of Rosings,and her not perfectly understanding the house,he seemed to expect that whenever she came into Kent again she would be staying there too.His words seemed to imply it.Could he have Colonel Fitzwilliam in his thoughts?She supposed,if he meant any thing,he must mean an allusion to what might arise in that quarter.It distressed her a little,and she was quite glad to find herself at the gate in the pales opposite the Parsonage.
She was engaged one day,as she walked,in re perusing Jane's last letter,and dwelling on some passages which proved that Jane had not written in spirits,when,instead of being again surprized by Mr Darcy,she saw on looking up that Colonel Fitzwilliam was meeting her.Putting away the letter immediately and forcing a smile,she said;
‘I did not know before that you ever walked this way.’
‘I have been making the tour of the park,’he replied,‘as I generally do every year,and intend to close it with a call at the Parsonage.Are you going much farther?’
‘No,I should have turned in a moment.’
And accordingly she did turn,and they walked towards the Parsonage together.
‘Do you certainly leave Kent on Saturday?’said she.
‘Yes-if Darcy does not put it off again.But I am at his disposal.He arranges the business just as he pleases.’
‘And if not able to please himself in the arrangement,he has at least great pleasure in the power of choice.I do not know any body who seems more to enjoy the power of doing what he likes than Mr Darcy.’
‘He likes to have his own way very well,’replied Colonel Fitzwilliam.‘But so we all do.It is only that he has better means of having it than many others,because he is rich,and many others are poor.I speak feelingly.A younger son,you know,must be inured to self denial and dependence.’
‘In my opinion,the younger son of an earl can know very little of either.Now,seriously,what have you ever known of self denial and dependence?When have you been prevented by want of money from going wherever you chose,or procuring any thing you had a fancy for?’
‘These are home questions-and perhaps I cannot say that I have experienced many hardships of that nature.But in matters of greater weight,I may suffer from the want of money.Younger sons cannot marry where they like.’
‘Unless where they like women of fortune,which I think they very often do.’
‘Our habits of expense make us too dependent,and there are not many in my rank of life who can afford to marry without some attention to money.’
‘Is this,’thought Elizabeth,‘meant for me?’and she coloured at the idea;but,recovering herself,said in a lively tone,‘And pray,what is the usual price of an earl's younger son?Unless the elder brother is very sickly,I suppose you would not ask above fifty thousand pounds.’
He answered her in the same style,and the subject dropped.To interrupt a silence which might make him fancy her affected with what had passed,she soon afterwards said,
‘I imagine your cousin brought you down with him chiefly for the sake of having somebody at his disposal.I wonder he does not marry,to secure a lasting convenience of that kind.But,perhaps his sister does as well for the present,and,as she is under his sole care,he may do what he likes with her.’
‘No,’said Colonel Fitzwilliam,‘that is an advantage which he must divide with me.I am joined with him in the guardianship of Miss Darcy.’
‘Are you,indeed?And pray what sort of guardians do you make?Does your charge give you much trouble?Young ladies of her age are sometimes a little difficult to manage,and if she has the true Darcy spirit,she may like to have her own way.’
As she spoke,she observed him looking at her earnestly,and the manner in which he immediately asked her why she supposed Miss Darcy likely to give them any uneasiness,convinced her that she had somehow or other got pretty near the truth.She directly replied,
‘You need not be frightened.I never heard any harm of her;and I dare say she is one of the most tractable creatures in the world.She is a very great favourite with some ladies of my acquaintance,Mrs Hurst and Miss Bingley.I think I have heard you say that you know them.’
‘I know them a little.Their brother is a pleasant,gentleman like man-he is a great friend of Darcy's.’
