So the spring months went by,the cool rains of April passing into the warm balm of green May weather.The weeks were packed with work and worry and the handicaps of increasing pregnancy,with old friends growing cooler and her family increasingly more kind,more maddeningly solicitous and more completely blind to what was driving her.During those days of anxiety and struggle there was only one dependable,understanding person in her world,and that person was Rhett Butler.It was odd that he of all people should appear in this light,for he was as unstable as quicksilver and as perverse as a demon fresh from the pit.But he gave her sympathy,something she had never had from anyone and never expected from him.
Frequently he was out of town on those mysterious trips to New Orleans which he never explained but which she felt sure,in a faintly jealous way,were connected with a woman—or women.But after Uncle Peter's refusal to drive her,he remained in Atlanta for longer and longer intervals.
While in town,he spent most of his time gambling in the rooms above the Girl of the Period Saloon,or in Belle Watling's bar hobnobbing with the wealthier of the Yankees and Carpetbaggers in money-making schemes which made the townspeople detest him even more than his cronies.He did not call at the house now,probably in deference to the feelings of Frank and Pitty who would have been outraged at a male caller while Scarlett was in a delicate condition.But she met him by accident almost every day.Time and again,he came riding up to her buggy when she was passing through lonely stretches of Peachtree road and Decatur road where the mills lay.He always drew rein and talked and sometimes he tied his horse to the back of the buggy and drove her on her rounds.She tired more easily these days than she liked to admit and she was always silently grateful when he took the reins.He always left her before they reached the town again but all Atlanta knew about their meetings,and it gave the gossips something new to add to the long list of Scarlett's affronts to the proprieties.
She wondered occasionally if these meetings were not more than accidental.They became more and more numerous as the weeks went by and as the tension in town heightened over negro outrages.But why did he seek her out,now of all times when she looked her worst?Certainly he had no designs upon her if he had ever had any,and she was beginning to doubt even this.It had been months since he made any joking references to their distressing scene at the Yankee jail.He never mentioned Ashley and her love for him or made any coarse and ill-bred remarks about “coveting her.”She thought it best to let sleeping dogs lie,so she did not ask for an explanation of their frequent meetings.And finally she decided that,because he had little to do besides gamble and had few enough nice friends in Atlanta,he sought her out solely for companionship's sake.
Whatever his reason might be,she found his company most welcome.He listened to her moans about lost customers and bad debts,the swindling ways of Mr.Johnson and the incompetency of Hugh.He applauded her triumphs,where Frank merely smiled indulgently and Pitty said “Dear me!”in a dazed manner.She was sure that he frequently threw business her way,for he knew all the rich Yankees and Carpetbaggers intimately,but he always denied being helpful.She knew him for what he was and she never trusted him,but her spirits always rose with pleasure at the sight of him riding around the curve of a shady road on his big black horse.When he climbed into the buggy and took the reins from her and threw her some impertinent remark,she felt young and gay and attractive again,for all her worries and her increasing bulk.She could talk to him about almost everything,with no care for concealing her motives or her real opinions and she never ran out of things to say as she did with Frank—or even with Ashley,if she must be honest with herself.But of course,in all her conversations with Ashley there were so many things which could not be said,for honor's sake,that the sheer force of them inhibited other remarks.It was comforting to have a friend like Rhett,now that for some unaccountable reason he had decided to be on good behavior with her.Very comforting,for she had so few friends these days.
“Rhett,”she asked stormily,shortly after Uncle Peter's ultimatum,“why do folks in this town treat me so scurvily and talk about me so?It's a toss-up who they talk worst about,me or the Carpetbaggers!I've minded my own business and haven't done anything wrong and—”
“If you haven't done anything wrong,it's because you haven't had the opportunity,and perhaps they dimly realize it.”
“Oh,do be serious!They make me so mad.All I've done is try to make a little money and—”
“All you've done is to be different from other women and you've made a little success at it.As I've told you before,that is the one unforgivable sin in any society.Be different and be damned!Scarlett,the mere fact that you've made a success of your mill is an insult to every man who hasn't succeeded.Remember,a well-bred female's place is in the home and she should know nothing about this busy,brutal world.”
“But if I had stayed in my home,I wouldn't have had any home left to stay in.”
“The inference is that you should have starved genteelly and with pride.”
“Oh,fiddle-dee-dee!But look at Mrs.Merriwether.She's selling pies to Yankees and that's worse than running a sawmill,and Mrs.Elsing takes in sewing and keeps boarders,and Fanny paints awful-looking china things that nobody wants and everybody buys to help her and—”
