“You get out of this buggy,you dirty-minded varmint,”she said,her voice shaking.
“I'll do nothing of the kind,”he returned calmly.“It'll be dark before you get home and there's a new colony of darkies living in tents and shanties near the next spring,mean niggers I've been told,and I see no reason why you should give the impulsive Ku Klux a cause for putting on their nightshirts and riding abroad this evening.”
“Get out!”she cried,tugging at the reins and suddenly nausea overwhelmed her.He stopped the horse quickly,passed her two clean handkerchiefs and held her head over the side of the buggy with some skill.The afternoon sun,slanting low through the newly leaved trees,spun sickeningly for a few moments in a swirl of gold and green.When the spell had passed,she put her head in her hands and cried from sheer mortification.Not only had she vomited before a man—in itself as horrible a contretemps as could overtake a woman—but by doing so,the humiliating fact of her pregnancy must now be evident.She felt that she could never look him in the face again.To have this happen with him,of all people,with Rhett who had no respect for women!She cried,expecting some coarse and jocular remark from him which she would never be able to forget.
“Don't be a fool,”he said quietly.“And you are a fool,if you are crying for shame.Come,Scarlett,don't be a child.Surely you must know that,not being blind,I knew you were pregnant.”
She said “Oh”in a stunned voice and tightened her fingers over her crimson face.The word itself horrified her.Frank always referred to her pregnancy embarrassedly as “your condition,”Gerald had been wont to say delicately “in the family way,”when he had to mention such matters,and ladies genteelly referred to pregnancy as being “in a fix.”
“You are a child if you thought I didn't know,for all your smothering yourself under that hot lap robe.Of course,I knew.Why else do you think I've been—”
He stopped suddenly and a silence fell between them.He picked up the reins and clucked to the horse.He went on talking quietly and as his drawl fell pleasantly on her ears,some of the color faded from her down-tucked face.
“I didn't think you could be so shocked,Scarlett.I thought you were a sensible person and I'm disappointed.Can it be possible that modesty still lingers in your breast?I'm afraid I'm not a gentleman to have mentioned the matter.And I know I'm not a gentleman,in view of the fact that pregnant women do not embarrass me as they should.I find it possible to treat them as normal creatures and not look at the ground or the sky or anywhere else in the universe except their waist lines—and then cast at them those furtive glances I've always thought the height of indecency.Why should I?It's a perfectly normal state.The Europeans are far more sensible than we are.They compliment expectant mothers upon their expectations.While I wouldn't advise going that far,still it's more sensible than our way of trying to ignore it.It's a normal state and women should be proud of it,instead of hiding behind closed doors as if they'd committed a crime.”
“Proud!”she cried in a strangled voice.“Proud—ugh!”
“Aren't you proud to be having a child?”
“Oh，dear God,no!I—I hate babies!”
“You mean—Frank's baby?”
“No—anybody's baby.”
For a moment she went sick again at this new error of speech,but his voice went on as easily as though he had not marked it.
“Then we're different.I like babies.”
“You like them?”she cried,looking up,so startled at the statement that she forgot her embarrassment.“What a liar you are!”
“I like babies and I like little children,till they begin to grow up and acquire adult habits of thought and adult abilities to lie and cheat and be dirty.That can't be news to you.You know I like Wade Hampton a lot,for all that he isn't the boy he ought to be.”
That was true,thought Scarlett,suddenly marveling.He did seem to enjoy playing with Wade and often brought him presents.
“Now that we've brought this dreadful subject into the light and you admit that you expect a baby some time in the not too distant future,I'll say something I've been wanting to say for weeks—two things.The first is that it's dangerous for you to drive alone.You know it.You've been told it often enough.If you don't care personally whether or not you are raped,you might consider the consequences.Because of your obstinacy,you may get yourself into a situation where your gallant fellow townsmen will be forced to avenge you by stringing up a few darkies.And that will bring the Yankees down on them and someone will probably get hanged.Has it ever occurred to you that perhaps one of the reasons the ladies do not like you is that your conduct may cause the neck-stretching of their sons and husbands?And furthermore,if the Ku Klux handles many more negroes,the Yankees are going to tighten up on Atlanta in a way that will make Sherman's conduct look angelic.I know what I'm talking about,for I'm hand in glove with the Yankees.Shameful to state,they treat me as one of them and I hear them talk openly.They mean to stamp out the Ku Klux if it means burning the whole town again and hanging every male over ten.That would hurt you,Scarlett.You might lose money.And there's no telling where a prairie fire will stop,once it gets started.Confiscation of property,higher taxes,fines for suspected women—I've heard them all suggested.The Ku Klux—”
“Do you know any Ku Klux?Is Tommy Wellburn or Hugh or—”
He shrugged impatiently.
“How should I know?I'm a renegade,a turncoat,a Scallawag.Would I be likely to know?But I do know men who are suspected by the Yankees and one false move from them and they are as good as hanged.While I know you would have no regrets at getting your neighbors on the gallows,I do believe you'd regret losing your mills.I see by the stubborn look on your face that you do not believe me and my words are falling on stony ground.So all I can say is,keep that pistol of yours handy—and when I'm in town,I'll try to be on hand to drive you.”
