Any one gets hold of you and makes you do what they want.And you see through them and laugh at them--and do it.It's not enough to see clearly; I'm muddle-headed and stupid, and not worth a quarter of you, but I have tried to do what seemed right at the time.And you--your brain and your insight are splendid.But when you see what's right you're too idle to do it.You told me once that we shall be judged by our intentions, not by our accomplishments.I thought it a grand remark.But we must intend to accomplish--not sit intending on a chair.""You are wonderful!" he said gravely.
"Oh, you appreciate me!" she burst out again.
"I wish you didn't.You appreciate us all--see good in all of us.
And all the time you are dead--dead--dead.Look, why aren't you angry?"She came up to him, and then her mood suddenly changed, and she took hold of both his hands."You are so splendid, Mr.Herriton, that I can't bear to see you wasted.I can't bear--she has not been good to you--your mother.""Miss Abbott, don't worry over me.Some people are born not to do things.I'm one of them; I never did anything at school or at the Bar.I came out to stop Lilia's marriage, and it was too late.I came out intending to get the baby, and I shall return an 'honourable failure.' I never expect anything to happen now, and so I am never disappointed.You would be surprised to know what my great events are.Going to the theatre yesterday, talking to you now--I don't suppose I shall ever meet anything greater.I seem fated to pass through the world without colliding with it or moving it--and I'm sure I can't tell you whether the fate's good or evil.I don't die--Idon't fall in love.And if other people die or fall in love they always do it when I'm just not there.You are quite right; life to me is just a spectacle, which--thank God, and thank Italy, and thank you--is now more beautiful and heartening than it has ever been before."She said solemnly, "I wish something would happen to you, my dear friend; I wish something would happen to you.""But why?" he asked, smiling."Prove to me why I don't do as I am."She also smiled, very gravely.She could not prove it.No argument existed.Their discourse, splendid as it had been, resulted in nothing, and their respective opinions and policies were exactly the same when they left the church as when they had entered it.
Harriet was rude at lunch.She called Miss Abbott a turncoat and a coward to her face.Miss Abbott resented neither epithet, feeling that one was justified and the other not unreasonable.
She tried to avoid even the suspicion of satire in her replies.But Harriet was sure that she was satirical because she was so calm.
She got more and more violent, and Philip at one time feared that she would come to blows.
"Look here!" he cried, with something of the old manner, "it's too hot for this.We've been talking and interviewing each other all the morning, and I have another interview this afternoon.
I do stipulate for silence.Let each lady retire to her bedroom with a book.""I retire to pack," said Harriet."Please remind Signor Carella, Philip, that the baby is to be here by half-past eight this evening.""Oh, certainly, Harriet.I shall make a point of reminding him.""And order a carriage to take us to the evening train.""And please," said Miss Abbott, "would you order a carriage for me too?""You going?" he exclaimed.
"Of course," she replied, suddenly flushing.
"Why not?"
"Why, of course you would be going.Two carriages, then.Two carriages for the evening train." He looked at his sister hopelessly."Harriet, whatever are you up to? We shall never be ready.""Order my carriage for the evening train," said Harriet, and departed.
"Well, I suppose I shall.And I shall also have my interview with Signor Carella."Miss Abbott gave a little sigh.
"But why should you mind? Do you suppose that I shall have the slightest influence over him?""No.But--I can't repeat all that I said in the church.You ought never to see him again.You ought to bundle Harriet into a carriage, not this evening, but now, and drive her straight away.""Perhaps I ought.But it isn't a very big 'ought.' Whatever Harriet and I do the issue is the same.Why, Ican see the splendour of it--even the humour.Gino sitting up here on the mountain-top with his cub.We come and ask for it.He welcomes us.We ask for it again.He is equally pleasant.
I'm agreeable to spend the whole week bargaining with him.But Iknow that at the end of it I shall descend empty-handed to the plains.
It might be finer of me to make up my mind.But I'm not a fine character.
And nothing hangs on it."
"Perhaps I am extreme," she said humbly."I've been trying to run you, just like your mother.I feel you ought to fight it out with Harriet.Every little trifle, for some reason, does seem incalculably important today, and when you say of a thing that 'nothing hangs on it,' it sounds like blasphemy.There's never any knowing--(how am I to put it?)--which of our actions, which of our idlenesses won't have things hanging on it for ever."He assented, but her remark had only an æsthetic value.He was not prepared to take it to his heart.All the afternoon he rested--worried, but not exactly despondent.The thing would jog out somehow.Probably Miss Abbott was right.The baby had better stop where it was loved.And that, probably, was what the fates had decreed.He felt little interest in the matter, and he was sure that he had no influence.
It was not surprising, therefore, that the interview at the Caffè Garibaldi came to nothing.Neither of them took it very seriously.And before long Gino had discovered how things lay, and was ragging his companion hopelessly.Philip tried to look offended, but in the end he had to laugh."Well, you are right,"he said."This affair is being managed by the ladies.""Ah, the ladies--the ladies!" cried the other, and then he roared like a millionaire for two cups of black coffee, and insisted on treating his friend, as a sign that their strife was over.
