THE VALAKHIN FAMILY
Accordingly I set off alone.My first call on the route lay at the Valakhin mansion.It was now three years since I had seen Sonetchka, and my love for her had long become a thing of the past, yet there still lingered in my heart a sort of clear, touching recollection of our bygone childish affection.At intervals, also, during those three years, I had found myself recalling her memory with such force and vividness that I had actually shed tears, and imagined myself to be in love with her again, but those occasions had not lasted more than a few minutes at a time, and had been long in recurring.
I knew that Sonetchka and her mother had been abroad--that, in fact, they had been so for the last two years.Also, I had heard that they had been in a carriage accident, and that Sonetchka's face had been so badly cut with the broken glass that her beauty was marred.As I drove to their house, I kept recalling the old Sonetchka to my mind, and wondering what she would look like when I met her.Somehow I imagined that, after her two years' sojourn abroad, she would look very tall, with a beautiful waist, and, though sedate and imposing, extremely attractive.Somehow, also, my imagination refused to picture her with her face disfigured with scars, but, on the contrary, since I had read somewhere of a lover who remained true to his adored one in spite of her disfigurement with smallpox, strove to imagine that I was in love with Sonetchka, for the purpose of priding myself on holding to my troth in spite of her scars--Yet, as a matter of fact, I was not really in love with her during that drive, but having once stirred up in myself old MEMORIES of love, felt PREPARED to fall into that condition, and the more so because, of late, my conscience had often been pricking me for having discarded so many of my old flames.
The Valakhins lived in a neat little wooden mansion approached by a courtyard.I gained admittance by ringing a bell (then a rarity in Moscow), and was received by a mincing, smartly-attired page.
He either could not or made no attempt to inform me whether there was any one at home, but, leaving me alone in the dark hall, ran off down a still darker corridor.For a long time I waited in solitude in this gloomy place, out of which, in addition to the front door and the corridor, there only opened a door which at the moment was closed.Rather surprised at the dismal appearance of the house, I came to the conclusion that the reason was that its inmates were still abroad.After five minutes, however, the door leading into the salon was opened by the page boy, who then conducted me into a neat, but not richly furnished, drawing-room, where presently I was joined by Sonetchka.
She was now seventeen years old, and very small and thin, as well as of an unhealthy pallor of face.No scars at all were visible, however, and the beautiful, prominent eyes and bright, cheerful smile were the same as I had known and loved in my childhood.I had not expected her to look at all like this, and therefore could not at once lavish upon her the sentiment which I had been preparing on the way.She gave me her hand in the English fashion (which was then as much a novelty as a door-bell), and, bestowing upon mine a frank squeeze, sat down on the sofa by my side.
"Ah! how glad I am to see you, my dear Nicolas!" she said as she looked me in the face with an expression of pleasure so sincere that in the words "my dear Nicolas" I caught the purely friendly rather than the patronising note.To my surprise she seemed to me simpler, kinder, and more sisterly after her foreign tour than she had been before it.True, I could now see that she had two small scars between her nose and temples, but her wonderful eyes and smile fitted in exactly with my recollections, and shone as of old.
"But how greatly you have changed!" she went on."You are quite grown-up now.And I-I-well, what do you think of me?"
"I should never have known you," I replied, despite the fact that at the moment I was thinking that I should have known her anywhere and always.
"Why? Am I grown so ugly?" she inquired with a movement of her head.
"Oh, no, decidedly not!" I hastened to reply."But you have grown taller and older.As for being uglier, why, you are even--
