It was beginning to look brighter,when Fanny,observing a harp in the room,asked some questions about it,which soon led to an acknowledgment of her wishing very much to hear it,and a confession,which could hardly be believed,of her having never yet heard it since its being in Mansfield.To Fanny herself it appeared a very simple and natural circumstance.She had scarcely ever been at the Parsonage since the instrument's arrival,there had been no reason that she should;but Miss Crawford,calling to mind an early-expressed wish on the subject,was concerned at her own neglect;-and ‘Shall I play to you now?’-and ‘What will you have?’were questions immediately following with the readiest good humour.
She played accordingly;happy to have a new listener,and a listener who seemed so much obliged,so full of wonder at the performance,and who showed herself not wanting in taste.She played till Fanny's eyes,straying to the window on the weather's being evidently fair,spoke what she felt must be done.
‘Another quarter of an hour,’said Miss Crawford,‘and we shall see how it will be.Do not run away the first moment of its holding up.Those clouds look alarming.’
‘But they are passed over,’said Fanny.-‘I have been watching them.-This weather is all from the south.’
‘South or north,I know a black cloud when I see it;and you must not set forward while it is so threatening.And besides,I want to play something more to you-a very pretty piece-and your cousin Edmund's prime favourite.You must stay and hear your cousin's favourite.’
Fanny felt that she must;and though she had not waited for that sentence to be thinking of Edmund,such a memento made her particularly awake to his idea,and she fancied him sitting in that room again and again,perhaps in the very spot where she sat now,listening with constant delight to the favourite air,played,as it appeared to her,with superior tone and expression;and though pleased with it herself,and glad to like whatever was liked by him,she was more sincerely impatient to go away at the conclusion of it than she had been before;and on this being evident,she was so kindly asked to call again,to take them in her walk whenever she could,to come and hear more of the harp,that she felt it necessary to be done,if no objection arose at home.
Such was the origin of the sort of intimacy which took place between them within the first fortnight after the Miss Bertrams'going away,an intimacy resulting principally from Miss Crawford's desire of something new,and which had little reality in Fanny's feelings.Fanny went to her every two or three days;it seemed a kind of fascination;she could not be easy without going,and yet it was without loving her,without ever thinking like her,without any sense of obligation for being sought after now when nobody else was to be had;and deriving no higher pleasure from her conversation than occasional amusement,and that often at the expense of her judgment,when it was raised by pleasantry on people or subjects which she wished to be respected.She went however,and they sauntered about together many an half hour in Mrs Grant's shrubbery,the weather being unusually mild for the time of year;and venturing sometimes even to sit down on one of the benches now comparatively unsheltered,remaining there perhaps till in the midst of some tender ejaculation of Fanny's,on the sweets of so protracted an autumn,they were forced by the sudden swell of a cold gust shaking down the last few yellow leaves about them,to jump up and walk for warmth.
‘This is pretty-very pretty,’said Fanny,looking around her as they were thus sitting together one day;‘Every time I come into this shrubbery I am more struck with its growth and beauty.Three years ago,this was nothing but a rough hedgerow along the upper side of the field,never thought of as anything,or capable of becoming anything;and now it is converted into a walk,and it would be difficult to say whether most valuable as a convenience or an ornament;and perhaps in another three years we may be forgetting-almost forgetting what it was before.How wonderful,how very wonderful the operations of time,and the changes of the human mind!’And following the latter train of thought,she soon afterwards added:‘If any one faculty of our nature may be called more wonderful than the rest,I do think it is memory.There seems something more speakingly incomprehensible in the powers,the failures,the inequalities of memory,than in any other of our intelligences.The memory is sometimes so retentive,so serviceable,so obedient-at others,so bewildered and so weak-and at others again,so tyrannic,so beyond control!-We are to be sure a miracle every way-but our powers of recollecting and of forgetting,do seem peculiarly past finding out.’
Miss Crawford,untouched and inattentive,had nothing to say;and Fanny,perceiving it,brought back her own mind to what she thought must interest.
‘It may seem impertinent in me to praise,but I must admire the taste Mrs Grant has shown in all this.There is such a quiet simplicity in the plan of the walk!-not too much attempted!’
‘Yes,’replied Miss Crawford carelessly,‘it does very well for a place of this sort.One does not think of extent here-and between ourselves,till I came to Mansfield,I had not imagined a country parson ever aspired to a shrubbery or anything of the kind.’
