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Odd,odd,odd,was Lenina's verdict on Bernard Marx.So odd,indeed,that in the course of the succeeding weeks she had wondered more than once whether she shouldn't change her mind about the New Mexico holiday,and go instead to the North Pole with Benito Hoover.The trouble was that she knew the North Pole,had been there with George Edzel only last summer,and what was more,found it pretty grim.Nothing to do,and the hotel too hopelessly old-fashioned-no television laid on in the bedrooms,no scent organ,only the most putrid synthetic music,and not more than twenty-five Escalator-Squash Courts for over two hundred guests.No,decidedly she couldn't face the North Pole again.Added to which,she had only been to America once before.And even then,how inadequately!A cheap week-end in New York-had it been with Jean-Jacques Habibullah or Bokanovsky Jones?She couldn't remember.Anyhow,it was of absolutely no importance.The prospect of flying West again,and for a whole week,was very inviting.Moreover,for at least three days of that week they would be in the Savage Reservation.Not more than half a dozen people in the whole Centre had ever been inside a Savage reservation.As an Alpha-Plus psychologist,Bernard was one of the few men she knew entitled to a permit.For Lenina,the opportunity was unique.And yet,so unique also was Bernard's oddness,that she had hesitated to take it,had actually thought of risking the Pole again with funny old Benito.At least Benito was normal.Whereas Bernard……
"Alcohol in his blood-surrogate,"was Fanny's explanation of every eccentricity.But Henry,with whom,one evening when they were in bed together,Lenina had rather anxiously discussed her new lover,Henry had compared poor Bernard to a rhinoceros.
"You can't teach a rhinoceros tricks,"he had explained in his brief and vigorous style."Some men are almost rhinoceroses;they don't respond properly to conditioning.Poor devils!Bernard's one of them.Luckily for him,he's pretty good at his job.Otherwise the Director would never have kept him.However,"he added consolingly,"I think he's pretty harmless."
Pretty harmless,perhaps;but also pretty disquieting.That mania,to start with,for doing things in private.Which meant,in practice,not doing anything at all.For what was there that one could do in private.(Apart,of course,from going to bed:but one couldn't do that all the time.)Yes,what was there?Precious little.The first afternoon they went out together was particularly fine.Lenina had suggested a swim at the Torquay Country Club followed by dinner at the Oxford Union.But Bernard thought there would be too much of a crowd.Then what about a round of Electro-magnetic Golf at St Andrews?But again no:Bernard considered that Electro-magnetic Golf was a waste of time.
"Then what's time for?"asked Lenina in some astonishment.
Apparently,for going walks in the Lake District;for that was what he now proposed.Land on the top of Skiddaw and walk for a couple of hours in the heather."Alone with you,Lenina."
"But,Bernard,we shall be alone all night."
Bernard blushed and looked away."I meant,alone for talking,"he mumbled.
"Talking?But what about?"Walking and talking-that seemed a very odd way of spending an afternoon.
In the end she persuaded him,much against his will,to fly over to Amsterdam to see the Semi-Demi-Finals of the Women's Heavyweight Wrestling Championship.
"In a crowd,"he grumbled."As usual."He remained obstinately gloomy the whole afternoon;wouldn't talk to Lenina's friends(of whom they met dozens in the ice-cream soma bar between the wrestling bouts);and in spite of his misery absolutely refused to take the half-gramme raspberry sundae which she pressed upon him."I'd rather be myself,"he said."Myself and nasty.Not somebody else,however jolly."
"A gramme in time saves nine,"said Lenina,producing a bright treasure of sleep-taught wisdom.
Bernard pushed away the proffered glass impatiently.
"Now don't lose your temper,"she said."Remember,one cubic centimetre cures ten gloomy sentiments."
"Oh,for Ford's sake,be quiet!"he shouted.
Lenina shrugged her shoulders."A gramme is always better than a damn,"she concluded with dignity,and drank the sundae herself.
On their way back across the Channel,Bernard insisted on stopping his propeller and hovering on his helicopter screws within a hundred feet of the waves.The weather had taken a change for the worse;a south-westerly wind had sprung up,the sky was cloudy.
"Look,"he commanded.
"But it's horrible,"said Lenina shrinking back from the window.She was appalled by the rushing emptiness of the night,by the black foam-flecked water heaving beneath them,by the pale face of the moon,so haggard and distracted among the hastening clouds."Let's turn on the radio.Quick!"She reached for the dialling knob on the dashboard and turned it at random.
"……skies are blue inside of you,"sang sixteen tremoloing falsettos,"the weather's always……"
Then a hiccough and silence.Bernard had switched off the current.
"I want to look at the sea in peace,"he said."One can't even look with that beastly noise going on."
"But it's lovely.And I don't want to look."
"But I do,"he insisted."It makes me feel as though……"he hesitated,searching for words with which to express himself,"as though I were more me,if you see what I mean.More on my own,not so completely a part of something else.Not just a cell in the social body.Doesn't it make you feel like that,Lenina?"
But Lenina was crying."It's horrible,it's horrible,"she kept repeating."And how can you talk like that about not wanting to be a part of the social body?After all,everyone works for everyone else.We can't do without anyone.Even Epsilons……"
"Yes,I know,"said Bernard derisively."'Even Epsilons are useful'!So am I.And I damned well wish I weren't!"
